Nothing's Stopping Me Now

If you all remember, from my previous journal, I was all sad, maybe even somewhat depressed, well I, for the most part, was. I had a terrible night filled with accusations and 'name-calling' by my parents, it was awful, it was because of a few times where I slipped up and/or made a mistake which my parents took seriously. In the end, I was a fool, not just for those foolish mistakes I made, but for letting my parents get to me.

And so, after taking some time to calm down with some LoZ (Legend of Zelda) action from 1-3am, bumping into some random funny clips online, and from receiving some replies from good pals of mine here on DA I've had some time to think about it. I've been letting small words and events control me, (metaphorically) I have kept myself grounded since I've been to afraid to fly, I've been letting my parents tie me down when I know what they say isn't always true. But after thinking it through, I've decided to break my chains and fly, be myself, live my life, and prove to everyone and especially myself, who 'Tania' is.

I've only seen one side of a concept these guys at my high school have been using in idiotic situations, especially during our Health unit on gangs, it's the infamous YOLO: an acronym that stands for "You Only Live Once." Sounds foolish right? The guys love you use it in situations that involve jokes about stupid stunts, drugs, obscenities, and alcohol. Of course, (stupid) boys will be boys, but you know what? I've found YOLO to mean much more than idiotic things like that, I've adopted it to mean 'live your life, cause you only have one,' and that's how I (also) see it. With the crap that's been going on in my life, I think I'd like to adopt YOLO as a personal motto/mantra, I am only going to have one chance at life, so why should I live it tied down? I've decided that I'm going to begin actually experiencing life to it's potential, but within reason of course. I'm not saying that I''m gonna be a rebel, destroy some things, run in the street, jump off of buidlings, be a daredevil, or start drinking/doing drugs, no no no. I mean that I'm going to stop being a wuss and actually LIVE, I'm going to go take some ACTION for once and be a WOMAN, be INDEPENDENT, and most of all BE TANIA! YOLO everyone, YO-LO. >:.D

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Since I can't shout it out for real because it' 12:30am, I'm going to do it here: HELLO DEVIANTART, MY NAME IS TANIA, I'M A NEWLY INDEPENDENT TEEN (GIRL) WHO LOVES TO DRAW, APPRECIATING ART, AND ANYONE WHO DECIDES TO BE AN ARTIST! I ALSO LOVE LEARNING ABOUT NEW CULTURES SINCE IT JUST FASCINATES ME HOW OTHERS LIVE THEIR LIVES SO DIFFERENTLY WITH SUCH DIFFERENT HISTORY AND GET BY JUST THE SAME! I'M PROUD TO SAY THAT I'M OF HISPANIC HERITAGE ON BOTH SIDES, TO HAVE BEEN BORN IN THE US, AND TO SAY THAT I AM LEARNING AND APPRECIATING THE (LATIN AMERICAN) SPANISH AND JAPANESE LANGUAGE! I'M NOT AFRAID TO SAY THAT I'M TOTALLY A FAT GIRL WHO LOVES ANYONE AND EVERYONE DESPITE THEIR ACTIONS TOWARDS ME AND/OR OTHERS, I BELIEVE THAT EVERYONE DESERVES A CHANCE AND NO ONE DESERVES ANY LESS! THAT'S WHO I AM, I'M A CHRISTIAN WHO BELIEVES THAT EVERYONE IS THE SAME DEEP DOWN AND ARE ALL EQUAL IN MY BOOK! >;.D I'M TANIA AND I AM NO PUSHOVER, BUT I WON'T DENY BEING A LOVER~!